Re-Living Tragedy

Are you (expletive) kidding me?!  My reaction to a message regarding another Illinois State Trooper being injured or killed while doing their job.  I cannot put into words, the sick, dark, horrible feeling that comes over my body when I receive such news.  It’s like getting punched in the gut over and over and over again.  I lose motivation. I lose hope. I lose faith. I lose the positive feelings I that go to counseling and practice self care in order to maintain.

It is impossible to avoid. I already feel like I have my head in the sand.  I don’t watch any news outlets and avoid things people share or stories on social media regarding tragic situations.  I used to have a barrier of ignorance to all of this. Now I know that barrier was ignorance.  Man, I wish I was ignorant to the sad, horrible things of the world again.  I wasn’t stupid….I know stuff happened…just not to me or my family, though.

What is the secret to getting through times like these?  I’d love to know the magic answer.  All I know is what helps me.  I bury myself in the only thing I know how to do to help these families. I make memory boxes for their precious items. No, this isn’t a plug for our business, it’s the truth.  It is my go to place to exert that negative energy into something positive.  What a different world we would live in if everyone who has a negative experience, resists the urge to react negatively and does something to make this world full of sadness and grief a little less awful.

In memory of Trooper Brooke Jones-Story, Illinois State Police, End of Watch March 28, 2019 and Trooper James Sauter, End of Watch March 28, 2013.

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